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Old 07-07-2004, 10:28 PM
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I had not ever intended to log into Pixie's again after Skip's passing and letting you all know of the tragedy. Unfortunately, I feel such a depth of guilt and pain that I need to share a little more before I go.

I was at the funeral home tonight with my 15-1/2 year old son. I tried to be a good strong mom, but I was a blubbering idiot. He was a mess also. He and "Skip" were very close and share many of the same interests. "Skip" took him to his first rock concert and I can only tell you one band of four that they heard that night (smile empty soul). Without him in my son's life for the last 8 months I would not have grown as close to my son as I have. He gave my son an insite into things in life that I am sure he would have not had with just me. He was a good man and a terrific father.

The very sad thing about this is that he joked about being a bastard of many sorts on this site. You should all know that he hid the fact that he truly thought that of himself. He thought that he was a bad person and no matter what anyone told him, I think he continued along a path of destruction until he could fight his demons no longer.

He was raised in the Lutheran Church and he had been attending the Church of Christ with me for the past 8 months and I truely believe he had made his peace with God and feel that no matter what, our God is merciful God and that he knows that "skip's" heart was good and no matter what happened in the end, his life was worthy of the heaven we each dream of in our own private way.

I loved "skip" deeply once and will morn his death for a long time to come. I'm somehow comforted to know that you all are morning with me, so I keep coming back to the people who know him better than his public knew him. There is no one else who could possibly understand this loss.

Thank you all for being his friends and being so kind in the end. I know he is watching and I hope also that he found peace in his last hours.

Hugs.
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