I feel the need...

[jennaflower]

to explain my lack of posting.. just incase anyone happened to notice...

Just like everyone else.. I post in spurts.. sometimes spending more time posting than lurking.. and visa versa. Lately tho, since the first of the year especially, I have found my posting to become even less and less regular often lurking for days at a time.

Recently I read a thread (the originator of the thread escapes me at the moment, tho it doesn't really matter) where someone took issue with there being an over-abundance of "downer" threads. Anyway, it was that thread that made me reluctant to post about what has kept me quiet and away.....

My absence (or more appropriately, my silence) has been caused by an event that has caused me to completely reevaluate many aspects of my life....

On New Years Eve, I suffered what the doctors believe to be a MILD stroke (TIA). (Yes, I know that at age 33 I am damn young to be having a stroke) Fortunately, it did not leave me with any permanent problems and altho the doctors are clueless as to what caused it , they have me on medication in hopes that it won't happen again.

This event, as scarey as it was, has caused me to re-evalute many things in my life. Not only does it make me more concerned for my son's future as well as my own, but the inner core of me that has been missing companionship seems to be screaming. The strangest part of that is that over the past month I had been getting to know a gentleman that lives about 5 hours away and knowing that he was very eager to meet... I turned him down... LOL.. I am crazy. LOL... oh well..

Anyway.. I just wanted to explain my absence.. and to thank the few of you who have been helping me along the way...

HUGS

[kleclere]

Sorry to hear about your condition. My prayers are with you and all my good energy is being sent to you to help fight the problem. All my best to you Jenna and a big hug goes out to you.

[Lilith]

Wow (((((((Jenna)))))) sending you vibes of peace and healing......take care hun!!!! PM me if ya ever need anything. Phone him, now, tell him to come!

[BlondeCurlGirl]

(((Jenna))) So sorry to hear about that scary experience and so relieved to hear you are alright! Sending my best wishes and a prayer your way... :)

[scotzoidman]

Wow...sending the best thoughts your way, I can certainly understand this is a life-changing event for you...

[Sugarsprinkles]

Jenna, I'm so happy that you seem to have come thru your ordeal with no permanent damage. I wish I would have known sooner, and I know Murphy will feel the same way. If there's anything either of us can do, PLEASE don't hesitate to let us know! We're only minutes away, y'know!! :)

[BIBI]

So glad that you have no lasting ill affects physically from your ordeal......I wondered where you were!

I have had three such attacks in my life...scares the hell out of you doesn't it......once with my first pregnancy and once with my second....third time was just thrown in by fate on my 40th birthday. Take care and try not to worry. Easier said than done I know....but stress is not good either!

[LixyChick]

So glad you felt a need to explain your absence Jenna. Yes, I was missing you and wondering! No matter what the other thread might have seemed to be saying, you do know you (and everyone) can always share and care here. That's what families are for.....good times and bad! Great news that you have no permanent damage from your ordeal! I hope you are feeling both physically and mentally better now........especially mentally when you read that all your friends are here for you anytime you need us! All my best thoughts are with you! *hugs n more hugs*

[Casperr]

What the??? You're only telling us NOW!!!!!
Jenna - don't worry about that post..... you're part of the Pixies family and many of us care very deeply for you! If somthing's up, WE WANNA KNOW ABOUT IT!!!!! If other people don't like it, they don't have to read it!

I'm so sorry to hear about your stroke! That's so scary, especially as you say at only 33! Glad you survived with no lasting effects.... that's great!

As for reprioritizing your life - good idea!! But PLEASE keep Pixies on that list somewhere! Lol! We'd hate to lose you! :)

And good luck with the companionship search.... relax, it will happen! You're a fantastic person and I have absolutely no doubt that you'll spend many years of bliss with someone you love and who loves you!

Best wishes,
CasperTG

[Aqua]

Glad to hear you are okay Jenna!! I can imagine it was a scary ordeal indeed. We are here for you if you need to talk... do not hesitate! Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way!! :D

[celticangel]

hope things are well with u now. love n' best wishes!

[whitehorse]

Your in my thoughts and prayers. I know how frightening these things can be, hang in there! Glad to hear that no permanent damage has occured.

[horseman12]

Jenna, scratching my head wondering why you you have not been in touch??? I hope all is better are at least geeting to that point.... Miss you!!!

[quisath]

Okay...........your fine. Do what Lilith said and call him to come to you. Don't let this deviate you from your Path Cutie. You'll get by this and we all Love You Here and want only the best for you. I can relate about the re-evaluating thing.................they thought I had cancer a few years ago but it turned out Benign but the time in between when I didn't know made me change. I want you to be well Jenna and wake up every day and be happy to inhale the Air. Your gonna be Fine Darlin. ((((((Jenna)))))) (tha'ts actually a very tight Hug) ;)

[dzbuster]

jenna i posted that and i wouldn't want to stiffle a real ongoing problem like yours. sorry if i caused you distress and hope you continue being healthy and that all goes well with your "gentleman" friend

[Joshka]

I am sorry to hear about the events over New Year. I wish you all the best health in spirit and body.

Have to agree with everyone else, call him.

[jennaflower]

Thanks so much to all of you that posted... you have re-enforced my belief that the people who come here are indeed wonderful in many different ways...

As for him... will give it a few days... and think about calling him....

[Vigil]

Dearest Jflower I have missed you're challenging witty and interesting contrbutions, you also have my best wishes for your health and happiness.

It's a funny thing with threads, should you respect the original question and intention or should you accept a freeflow. I have been sorry to see some stop through inappropraite posting (and apologise if I have been guilty of this myself) - but then I have decided to accept that this is the nature of the beast - so many ages cultures and attitudes. Next time it happens, in my opinion, I'll start a new thread.

By the way I got 100% - but followed the fantasy rather than the reality - I hope you don't mind.

[Murphy]

Dear sweet Jen, I wish you would have said something...E-mail, Phone, Smoke Signal...Me and Sugar waould have been there like a shot to give you healing and loving support. You know that....

So happy to hear you're better! Keep in touch sweety!